Babbi this should be my 24th of February message but I haven’t got the time to write this ao I’m wriring you now.
Congratulations Babbi I’m so proud of you. You passed the exam na akala mo hinde naman, at akala mo nasa waiting list ka pero ang totoo pasadong pasado at first choice pa.YAAAY!!!! Sabi ko naman diba sau Babbi wag ka mawawalan ng pag asa at yung UST ,hayaan mo na muna yun, atleast you know to yourself na yung pagod mo kakareview eh nagpayoff . Ayieee blow out ko po ,gusto ko ng kfc or kfc or kfc pili ka na lang sa tatlo Babbi na blow out mo sakin. Congrats again Baby, I’m so proud of you. I love you so much My Baby Princess
Masyadong maraming nangyayari ngayon at nakakapagod na. Ang sakit sa ulo nung kapag gabi iyak ka ng iyak, di mo mapigilan tapos wala pang makausap ng matino sa bahay. Sana kasi andito pa sil Lolo.
Kapag gising mo namamaga yung mata mo tapos ang sakit sa ulo. Hayyy ang ewan lang masyado ng mga nangyayari. Walang nakakaintindi sa akin dito, wala din naman kasing handang makinig at umintindi. Wala na si lolo eh. He’s the only one I can talk to, who’s always there to listen to me. I miss him everyday.
I’m 5 days clean, I’m sorry. I’m just tired, really tired and I don’t have someone I can talk to that time and there;s a lot of things in my head that I can’t handle it’s too much. But I promise it won’t happen again, that cut thingy. I don’t want to hurt myself more in that way.
Weekdays is my kind of escape, I forget my problems even in just a short period of time. And I really like laughing this time because it relieves all this pain. Kaya kapag nasa school ako, hanggat maaari ayoko ng away sakit masyado sa ulo. Problema na nga dito tapos sa school pa din ba naman. And when I’m with her nawawala yung mga problema na yun, sobrang saya ko kapag kasama ko siya. Wag lang kami mag-aaway hahaha. Ayun sana maging okay na ako sa mga susunod na araw.
Everything’s gonna be alright.
Last friday night, I’ve searched and read a lot of posts related to ustet. Some of them passed the entrance test and others did not make it. While others, like me passed but we’re on the waiting list because of the quota limitations. So we have to wait until March and know what will be the final result.
That time that I looked for the result It’s kind of disappointing because that “on-waiting list” result is 50-50. There’s no assurance, I don’t know but. Let’s just hope for the best.
"There are some people who will not accept you. There are also some who will never believe in you. And also, some people will despise you for no apparent reason. Well, this is reality, not everyone’s going to like you but always remember that it’s definitely not your obligation to please all of them because it’s impossible to happen, anyway. So, you better just prove them wrong and be the person you have always wanted to be. Don’t be afraid to show them who you really are and don’t you ever change just for them to like you. It’s better if you’ll just show the real you than pretending to be someone you’re not." (from heartofjuly)
I can really relate to this one well, all of us I guess. My sister and I just fought a while ago, I can’t stand her I’m so tired of understanding her. She’s always mad at me, every time we see each other in school we’re like nothing to each other. It fucking breaks my heart tho she didn’t know that. She’s saying lots of bad words to me and sometimes I don’t mind it since I’m the older one and I need to understand her. I’m trying to talk to her but she’s not listening to me and she’ll just roll her eyes. I didn’t do anything to her to be like that to me. I think she hates me because of my sexuality but wth that’s not an acceptable.
She’s my sister, she’s the one who should understands me but no. Other people who are like me that she knows, she understand them. And to me she’s fucking like that. I’m so tired. I miss the old her. I miss my sister, she used to be this sweet little sister of me but what happened to that little girl? How I wish my Grandpa’s still here, he’s the one who can really talk to us and correct our mistakes. I mean he’s the only one who have that power to stop this. It makes me miss him so much. I hate this fucking so much.
Monday morning We’ve had our breakfast in 7eleven, it has been like 12283 years since we’ve had this kind of breakfast date. Tho it’s not like the usual breakfast that you’ll have in your room or house but I know someday, we’ll have that kind of breakfast in our own house.
Then of course after that breakfast we attended our class. After our last subject we went to their house. She’s sick that’s why I took care of My Princess. I don’t want to see her like that, she can’t eat and she’s kind of weak. I really like taking of her and seeing her happy makes me more happy. I love her so much and I’ll do everything for her.
Tuesday. After our class we went again to their house cause she’s still sick but she managed to go to school yesterday. We ate and then we went to her room to rest and we watched some videos of StevieBoebi! Hahahah :D.I’m so happy every time I’m with her. She always make me happy even though we fight and we’re having some misunderstanding.
I love you so much My Dear Princess ♥